Stressors

In this time of the year, I am feeling a great deal of stress. There is so much on my mind that I only care to do a little. I have come to a conclusion that I fear to grow up. For so long, I put off looking at colleges and finding a college that suits me. Ever since I was in elementary, I have had this immense pressure put on me to become successful and really do something with my life. Well, this pressure is definitely grown to be a huge weight of worry on the back of my head. I feel like there is so much to do, but little time to do it. Giviing up would be less difficult than actually reaching my goals. Sometimes, I wish my record wasn't perfect, so that I had room to mess up, room to not care one day, room to not turn in my assignments because I didn't feel like doin them. Unfortunately, that is not who I am. In fact, it stresses me out even more if I didn't turn in an assignment or didn't study for a test or didn't follow instructions properly. I am feeling burnt out, but I won't show it. I have to keep my head high and continue looking at the goals I have planned for myself since the 1st grade.